dear kotak...,

aku dah xlarat sudah,
diperkotak katikkan engkau,
aku dah penat sudah,
diperangkap dalam engkau.

ku sangka dptku rehat sekejap,
dalam kotakmu itu,
tp tibe2 hujan,
habis basah kotak mu itu,
tibe2 ribut taufan,
habis bercerai kotak mu itu,
aku jugak yang susah.

dear kotak,
biar aku lekatkan dirimu dgn pita selefon,
bungkuskan dirimu hantar pejabat pos,
suruh dia deliver jauh dari hidupku,

dear kotak,
sudah ku tutup kotak hatiku ini,
sudah tiba masanya buat clearance,
aku dah nak pindah jauh2,

selamat tinggal, KOTAK..

u r taken!!? then nape sibok2 kat sini g?

okeyh, kalau lu dah taken, nape saje saje nk usik hati gua nih? dont make me talk like samseng u know..MARAH ni MARAH! haish! nasib baik aku terbukak pintu hati mau STALK fb engko kejap..

ade blog lu, gua bace, gua sentap tau x! haish! dok tulis diary hidup lu b'sama
kekasih t'chenta! ceit! then pehal dtg2 dekat gua, flirt2 melebih-lebih plak tuh.. then cube2 buat baik gile vavi..PEHAL?!!! mau tunjuk kat sape yang lu sweet ha!!? gua xmau tahu laaa..

haish..jiwa kacau betul lu buat gua jadik! nasib baek gua baru crush2 monyet je same lu..
so gua xsaman lu sebab flirt dgn gua,
PADAHAL TAKEN!




p/s: anda2 di luar sane, jgn flirt2 terlampau ye kalau dah taken.. :(

***ciri2 penulis cerita dongeng***

mau tahu manusia jenis apa yg tulis segala cite2 dongeng karut-marut tuh? okeyh! inilah ciri2 mereka:-

a) mereka actually xpernah sekali pon berada dalam relationship. Kenapa? Sebab dorang ingat jatuh cinta adalah begitu senang, sekali bertemu, terus bercinta dan bahagia smpai bile2! sungguh2 hyperbola yg terlampau amat!

b) mereka adalah insan yang seringkali gagal dlm percintaan. Kenapa? Sebab cite2 dongeng itu sume adalah harapan dan fantasy dorang yg dorang inginkan dalam hidup dorang tp MALANG sekali, hampeh nk dpt yg cam tuh! Dah x dpt jadi kenyataan, tulis dlm buku pon jadilah!

c) mereka adalah insan yang suka memberi harapan palsu kpd manusia sejagad. Kenapa? Sebab adalah mustahil untuk m'dapat cerita cinta mcm tuh, sehari jmpa terus jatuh cinta dan hidup selama2 nya dgn bhgia.. Sungguh ceritera palsu semate-mate!

p/s: So kalau korang teringin buat cite dongeng, mesti ade ciri2 di atas.. haha.. ;p

curang!?

oh oh, sejak ada dua blog nih, ak dah memulaukan blog ini.. sedih2..jgn sedih..ak dah kembali menaip-naip di blog ini..
bimbang seyh, kalau2 blog nih jealous dgn blog muda ny (bkn bini muda..haha) tup2, xmau function..haha..

the other blog is for my ICT, and since it's for my carry-marks, really have to put extra effort on it.it even looks prettier than this blog..haha..but it's ok because i express myself more on this one..but i somehow got a little addicted posting on that blog..haha..



p/s: sigh.............

Janda Dahaga

Saleha tinggal berseorangan di kampung selepas tragedi hitam yang berlaku dalam hidup dirinya. Tragedi yang tak mungkin dilupakan sama sekali. Saleha tidak mungkin akan melupakan bagaimana motor ais-krim Walls datang dan terlanggar suami beliau yang sedang ber-jogging di taman Andira. Sedang khusyuk Idris mendengar lagu-lagu di mp3nya, dia tidak menyedari sebuah motor sedang datang ke arahnya, walaupon motor tersebut memasang lagu temanya dengan begitu kuat sekali. Motor itu terlanggar badan Idris yang sedang sedang itu, lalu Idris tergolek ke tengah-tengah jalan dan sebuah lori penggangkut tilam buruk datang menerpa.Idris yang masih lagi lemah longlai di jalanan tidak mampu memberi sebarang reaksi kecuali muka terkejut dan jeritan kuat dari mulutnya itu dan segala-galanya gelap bagi dirinya.

Saleha yang baru sahaja sudah membeli keropok lekor di warung Mak Cik Bedah di seberang jalan lari dengan sepantas kilat sambil memanggil-manggil panggilan manja suaminya."Sayang! Sayang! Apa dah jadi ni?Abang!!!!"

Tragedi itu merupakan permulaanya dimana Saleha menaruh dendam kesumat terhadap ais-krim Walls dan memboikot produk-produk syarikat tersebut. Pada setiap kali Saleha ternampak ais-krim Walls, Saleha tidak mampu menahan air mata yang berlinangan jatuh ditepi anak matanya. Saleha sebak. Belum cukup setahun perkahwinan bahagia dia bersama satu-satunya lelaki tercinta, semuanya lerai begitu sahaja dek motor ais-krim Walls yang dipandu dengan sambil lewa.

Malam itu merupakan ulang tahun pertemuan Saleha dengan Idris pada 2 tahun yang lalu. Saleha menangis teringatkan segala memori-memori indah yang terjadi dalam hidupnya ketika dia mempunyai seorang lelaki untuk menjaga dan membelai dirinya. Terngiang-ngiang di kalbu Saleha bagaimana Idris mengelap air matanya setiap kali dia menangis, bagaimana Idris membelai rambutnya setiap kali dia mahu dorongan untuk terus hidup, bagaimana Idris mengangkatnya dalam pelukan badan lelakinya itu setiap kali urat kaki Saleha sakit dan tidak mampu untuknya berjalan. Semua kenangan itu membuatkan Saleha menangis di malam yang dingin itu.

Saleha bangun dari katil, menjenguk ke luar rumah sambil mengenangkan hari bahagia mereka yang dilangsungkan di kampungnya itu. Saleha pergi ke ruang tamu, terbayang di minda Saleha pelamin mereka yang tersergam indah suatu ketika dahulu. Saleha pergi ke dapur, mengenangkan riuh-rendahnya suasana di dapur ketika majlis perkahwinannya itu. Saleha tak mampu menahan perasaan sebak. Beliau menangis teresak-esak dan lututnya jatuh ke bumi kerana tidak mampu mengawal perasaan lagi. Saleha yang sebak itu pon bangun dari hujung tangga dapur itu, pergi ke arah meja tengah dapurnya itu, dan mengambil gelas dan meminum air suam dan berkata;
"Hilang jugak dahaga aku nih. Sambung tidurlah.."

p/s: Diinspirasikan oleh Adote dan juga kebosanan yang terlampau..Aku tahu memang tak seberapa pon, tapi pape jelah..Aku tengah bosan.... ^.^

saya benci awak, PAUL!

melihatkan tangan banyak yang bergerak2 mengingatkan aku kepada tarantula yang langsung tidak menunjukkan ciri2 ke-cute-an.. begitu geli aku melihat kamu yang bagai sedang melihat aku dan jurugambar dengan pandangan yang sinis dan ego, hanya kerna engkau mempunyai kuasa tilik yang aku pasti cumalah kebetulan sahaja..

dengar sini Paul! Kau ingat ko bagus sangat ha? Ohhhh..Habis world cup nih, aku amek ko, potong tangan ko satu persatu gune pisau tumpul..Muahahhahaha..

Tahukah engkau betapa terkilan nya aku sejak kemunculan ko dalam hidup aku? Sob3..If only you were not Sotong..I could have love you Paul..Kalau lah bukan kerna allergi aku terhadap sotong2, iaitu kaum kerabat ko, darah daging ko, ak mungkin mencintai mu Paul...

Oh aku keliru terhadap perasaanku terhadapmu..Hmmmm melihat kawan2 ku semua memuji ke-cute-an mu, aku keliru, apa yang cute..Bagiku kau nampak amat exotic..Not cute!!! Hmmm am I the only one who hates you Paul...

Maafkan aku Paul..Aku xmampu mencintaimu seperti kawan2ku mencintaimu..Hanya kerna engkau sotong......Maafkan daku...



p/s: saje merapu hilangkan bosan sambil2 meluahkn rasa benci terhadap Paul yang m'buatkan allergi aku makin bertambah dari hari ke hari selepas kemunculan beliau..

the highlighted moments when i'm with u~

24th March is ur birthday,

27th March was the day you call me just right before you go to sleep,

28th March was the day I first wrote a song about you,

3rd April was the day we sing together a love song,

6th April was the day we first have an argument and then we make up,

8th April was the day we plan our date,

20th April was the day you sent me a message that got me missing you so much,

8th May was the day I know you really care about me,

14th May was our magical day,

15th May was the day we have to be worlds apart,

15th May was the day you make a promise we will come back to KL on 5th July and be together again,

16th May was the day you said you WILL reply all my messages,

19th May was the first day you broke you promise that you'll reply all my messages,

22th May was the day we take an oath that will keep trying on each other and won't give up,

29th May was the day u said u love me,

1th June was the first day you treated me quite cold,

4th June was the day I found out your secret you were hiding from me,

10th June was the day you ask me to chill and everything will work out fine,

11th June was the day I thought our relationship have gotten better,

12th June was the day you said 'I Love You Baby' to him,

17th June was the day you started giving up for real,

19th June was the day we break up for good,

19th June was the day you break your every promises with me,

25th June was the day you contact me back,

25th June was the day I found strength to really let go you out of my life,

5th July was the day u said your coming back to Kl and we could be together again,

5th July was the day you die and now to me now u r officially dead..



p/s: dont bother calling me back cause you are officially dead in my life and im wishing you rest in peace..

what!!!!? REALLY? ouh damn..

bangun2 pada hari ni, tgok jam digital dan kalendar serbaguna yang terlekat di handphone, mencatakan dah pon 26 aribulan jun.. ouh ouh cepatnya mase berlalu..terasa cam baru je tadi aku tengah tengok cite shin chan, tengok2 dah habis..macam tulah dengan cuti aku..haish..

tapi yang amat panik, esok aku naik flight pukul 9a.m tapi banyak baju2 belum dibasuh, barang belum dipacking,tiket belum diprint out, slip bank yang entah dimana, kasut yang tak pernah lagi aku pakai yang tertinggal di rumah kawan, movie2 dan cite2 yang belum diambil dari kawan2 aku..haish banyak benda belum settle nih nak pegi unihell..maklumlah kan nak masuk hutan, kena buat persiapan yang giler2 punye, kalau tak gerenti mati kebulur or mati kebosanan..

apa2 pon, esok nak g dah unisel..ceit! xpe2, aku tahu disitulah sebenarnya terletak kebahagiaan mutlak aku * kate2 semangat yang ter amat2 bohong dan terlampau *


p/s: aku amat2 memerlukan kata2 dorongan dan juga seseorang untuk menolak atau mengheret aku pergi unisel kerna otak aku masih lagi sedang mau holiday holiday di kampung halaman...ceit!

let go~

yes it doesnt work out..it was never meant to work out..i know it..i saw it coming..
but hey thanks for everything..there were good times n bad times..but now it's time to let go, so i let go..

well i do not appreciate the last five minutes of the phone call, but it's ok..we're not little anymore..we can move on..n i have learnt to forgive u, now it's time to forget u..it's hard, but hey nothing is really simple in this life..

i do not wanna be like other people, be mad and all you know..not that i can't..i can..but i refuse to..let us walk away from each other with peace not war..yeah a little disappointing it doesnt last long but what's important is that what we have at that moment, not what we have become..

so im wishing for both of us, happy always..wish u luck coz u might need it..lol..a little sarcasm won't hurt right..now for the love i have, im taking it out slowly, put in a bottle and throw it away..away away away..away from here..

p/s: tanx for everything..yeah i cried too, ur not the only one who hurts, but you gotta understand who should have hurt more here..but no matter, it doesnt matter..juz held our head high up and walk strongly~

making a potion~

a plate of grilled bread, to cast away hungry-ness
+
a splash of cold water, to keeps me cold
+
a dozen packets of chocolates, to keep me sane
+
a glass of fresh milk, to summon drowsy-ness
+
a bed with pillows, to ensure a tight nice sleep
+
an 8 hour sleep to regain full energy

p/s: good night..

im calm until i know u, oh Final Exam!

its coming and guess i better get ready for it.. have to put effort in all of it coz its hard..gonna be a stressful two weeks and i won't be online that much after this..maybe not at all..

need to be a study machine from now on..Got Philosophy,Language Awareness,Linguistics,Grammar and Malaysian Lit. to focus on and most of them i need to put EXTRA effort!

somehow feel really pumped up and wish me good luck and all the best yeah.. ^^

im calm until i know u r coming oh Final Exam..and now lets get this over and done with..

i said to my friend, coz im a believer..

my friend always ask me, why i am so into sumthing that i sumtimes get so obsessed with it..
i said to him, coz im a believer..

as much as i have negative thoughts, i am a believer..and the world is big, and im just a dust that mess the world up..

and we're mixed up with so many people to hurt us,to trust us,to care for us,to hate us, to make us cry and suffer, to appreciate us, to waste us and there's people to love us endlessly..

so just keep believing when u feel like there's nothing more u could hold on to my friend.. ^^

i had a bad dream~

aku jarang ada mimpi2 buruk yg mbuat kn ak agak sedih and moody..aku bukan orang yang percaya sangat dengan mimpi coz bagi aku mimpi tuh mainan tidur..tapi aku agak lemah if mimpi tuh bermain dengan emosi aku..

damn, aku dah tenang but then it strikes me again..why why why..

if i cud, i will erase the dream and evrything thats bitter..aku xmau ikot2 perasaan kerana satu mimpi yang not even a real thing happening..now back to my regular normal life..

if its just a dream, its gonna stay a dream..
as the same as my hope n dreams..if it just hope n dreams it's just gonna stay still like that only..

Au Revoir~

setelah ak dihentam oleh Mdm Zuraifah bahawa dlm Bahasa French TIADA bunyi 'R' instead digantikan dgn bunyi 'gh', ak akan igt sampai2 bile2 fakta tersebut! ^^

tp yg lebih sedih skali, ak denga2 kate Jana Niaga mcm ala2 dah nk tutup Internet supply for budak hostel..Betul ke? Damn..

Dahla cekik darah..Nak tutup internet yang dah mmg Sedia Slow tuh pulak..Ak igt berita tuh betul coz Semalam Satu Unisel xley on9, tapi malam ni dah BOLEY..huhu..So DOA2 la agar internet tak kena tutup..Kalau tak terpaksa la ak mengPRAKTIKKAN tunjuk ajar Mdm Zuraifah and mengucapkan 'Au Ghevwa' untuk ON9 selama hayat di Unisel ni....... :(

P/s; Final da nak dekat..SO mmg jarang gile bole on9, tapi still ak xnak INTERNET ditutup..At least everyweek bile2 ak free, boley la ak dtg FAKulti utk on9..huhu..

is it stars i see or its an empty sky?

i woke up,
my room is freezing cold but im feeling warm,
went to turn of the lights coz its fucking bright,
and i open the curtain and there's stars,
early in the morning,

i sit on the bed,
staring out the window,
cursing but i know i shouldn't
thinking it's the same thing again,
walking down the lane, halfway
just like a breeze, never permanent

i haven't talk,
and it's already late in the afternoon,
don't feel like i have to,
when my heart is numb but anxious,
feeling too comfortable,
with what might be the truth or lies,

but i said to myself,
that pain and disappointment,
are just simple compromises,
just feel the breeze until it last,
cause when the song ended,
u won't be able to enjoy it anymore.

lately i have no mood but it makes me write this baby right here..^^

sumtimes a boy just need his mother

damn..i dun think i could be even happier now..i jus got home..lil bit sad be staying jus for two days but its ok rather than not going back at all..

unihell gave me a hell bunch of stress..i dun like it..the drama..the loneliness..damn..i got some best good friends there (u guys know who y'all are ^-^) that helped me a lot but sometimes a boy just needs his own mother, his old best friends and his own bed to cheer him up..

gonna try to enjoy these two days to the fullest..so hungry always there but here not anymore..
havent updated for a long time coz got no mood,but guess sometimes a boy also need his blog to talk to, espicially when the loneliness gets the best of him..