is it stars i see or its an empty sky?

i woke up,
my room is freezing cold but im feeling warm,
went to turn of the lights coz its fucking bright,
and i open the curtain and there's stars,
early in the morning,

i sit on the bed,
staring out the window,
cursing but i know i shouldn't
thinking it's the same thing again,
walking down the lane, halfway
just like a breeze, never permanent

i haven't talk,
and it's already late in the afternoon,
don't feel like i have to,
when my heart is numb but anxious,
feeling too comfortable,
with what might be the truth or lies,

but i said to myself,
that pain and disappointment,
are just simple compromises,
just feel the breeze until it last,
cause when the song ended,
u won't be able to enjoy it anymore.

lately i have no mood but it makes me write this baby right here..^^