tRagedi 28 jAn 0o9!

disaster tul!

bgini:

ak g kb maLl lwat riDz n sUf krja.. g dGn naEm..

the thng is, naEm (asyik) dOk ejEk ak jer.. wtf!!?! prlu kew? n mlu kn ak dpan pblic..coMe on.. ak tau ak pon buat bnda yg memalukan gak kdng2 but its my willing to do it!

n the wOrse ak cuBe hooK up kn sUf wiF some he likes but in da eNd i gOt humilated fOr tyring and dyiNg to sEE one oF my besT friEnds b happy! daMn it!

dah la die nk pertikai kn pLak ap yg bLey memalukn ak sGt.. nk defend diri plak 2h! ckp ape yg tr jaDi is not that worse!

n more td aZam call die, aZam tnya psal ape yg jd pda hri rBu, die ckp sume itu sLah riDz! wat Da fuck!? its not riDz's at blame.. n i know its not ue 100% either.. n die plak ckp die xmintak pon perTolongan ku.. ak yg rela..

yeah i admit it buT thiNk wif uR fuCking briLLiant bRain! i help ue so u'd be happy! is it so hard to say even TQ for helpin' or give a lil sympathy and saYs SORRY ??? huh?? isH!

SOME FRIENDS U ARE !!

Haha.. Wat a wnderful Day!haha..

Hari nie kuar jln2 kat kb mall..Agak best arr..da lame xjumpe dgn Arieff, Rifaa, Keiro, Bib, Ridz, Suf and Azam.. Windu dorang sume2! Korang la bFFs ku..Wahahahhahaha!

Td Arieff m Keirol ade dtg jap..Haha..saje gambar2 dlm blik ku td..Hahaha..

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Sdg impersonate kawan Arieff kat Matrix die..haha..

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Kejadah nyer nie..?? Haha..

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Feeling lg Keiro.. Haha.. One more: sdg impersonate kawan Matrix Arieff yg lngsung Ak n Keirol xknal..Haha..

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Yes.. We could be cheeky.. Haha..

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Ak di malam2 hari mmg "Liar"..haha..

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the confession session -

Ak btul2 da xley tahan daa..

Slame nie Ku igt Ku msih ag suke kat Kure2 2h.., tp rupanye Biskut gak ade dlm pale otak ak mase ak tgok si Kure2 2h..

Argh!! Haish! AK da xthan daa wey!

Nape ak Sayang giler dgn Biskut?? Kenape Kenape Kenape????!!???

I need to forget Biskut A.S.A.P. coz ak dah xley kawal emosi ak dah.. Mlm nie nangis ag psal si Biskut 2h..

Adoyai.. Penim.. Penim..

Need some help! Wipe Biskut away from my mind! Or kalau xbley vanish die from my mind.., make die suke ak like ak suke die.... Please...

Ber - SHAKESPEARE - an !

Aku memang dah lame suke write songs lyrics but this time kinda special skit.. Cause aku tulis dalam jiwa ber - SHAKESPEARE - an .. Haha.. Mentang2 blajar literiture sem 2 nie kan.. Wahahahahahahahahaha.. Agak touching laa.. Tp for this lyrics Ku lebih nak bubuh melody yg agak fast.. Haha.. Whatever it is, this is how I'm feeling..

IRONY


Lay your hands in front of my door
Know that's a knock I should have not response to
Guess the bell ring quite more than twice, trice
Say how cant you expect me to keep it close
I know you are joking all along
But my heart just cant resist the temptation
My soul at the moment was broken
And I'm so desperate looking for someone who could fix it

Damn its happening
The cage is opening
Let the beast gone wild
Hormones racing up for a fight
But the only fences blocking the way is that
Our attitude ourselves

You were playing now you seems serious
With your face high With your face smiling
Take my hands let go my hands
I wanna kiss you Afraid to kiss you
Then you wanna kiss me I wont let you kiss me
What the hell is going on?
Come to me and Touch me
Roll over you're gone you have no mood no more
Were you playing or were you loving me?

So irony
Its like you like me when you doesn't like me
So irony
When you love you gotta love someone without no limit
Now it seems you have seasons of loving me
First speak love
Second speak friend
So irony
So irony

Be acting like we shoulda get a room
But I know that your bringing me to my doom
Cause I've fallen and you're nowhere close to love
Seems so much then figure out it may be lust
Hug me, move foward straight ahead you're gone
Then peek-a-boo you're back be mean again
Don't know what's the message you tryna convey
All I see is spinning stars ain't going away

Damn the worse is coming
The cage is opening
Let the beast gone wild
Hormones racing up for a fight
But the only fences blocking the way is that
Your attitude yourself

You were playing now you seems serious
With your face high With your face smiling
Take my hands let go my hands
I wanna kiss you Afraid to kiss you
Then you wanna kiss me I wont let you kiss me
What the hell is going on?
Come to me and Touch me
Roll over you're gone you have no mood no more
Were you playing or were you loving me?

So irony
Its like you like me when you doesn't like me
So irony
When you love you gotta love someone without no limit
Now it seems you have seasons of loving me
First speak love
Second speak friend
So irony
So irony

Don't come for me if you didn't love me
Release me if this just a game you play
Cant you see this tears dropping off of my eyes
I want you more than I ever think I would
So don't come bringing false hope like I coulda have you
oh oh oh..

You were playing now you seems serious
With your face high With your face smiling
Take my hands let go my hands
I wanna kiss you Afraid to kiss you
Then you wanna kiss me I wont let you kiss me
What the hell is going on?
Come to me and Touch me
Roll over you're gone you have no mood no more
Were you playing or were you loving me?

So irony
Its like you like me when you doesn't like me
So irony
When you love you gotta love someone without no limit
Now it seems you have seasons of loving me
First speak love
Second speak friend
So irony
So irony

UNbreakable, UNstopable, INcredible but INvisible !!

Im UNbreakable:

Thats true.. Ku xmudah putus asa.. N aint nothing in the world could break me including love..

Im UNstopable:

Thats true..Wlaupun Ku sakit ke demam ke xkan nyer Ku henti mcm 2h jer..

Im INcredible:

Thats true..I know it cause I could see what amazing things I could do..

But Im still INvisible..

Still hidden in a Pandora's Box waiting to be open

Waiting for prism to give me colours

Waiting for black and white to be on me

Waiting for your pupil to see me there

And finally realize that

Im looking at you

More than you ever know

So dont walk through me

And ignore the fact of my feelings..

Cause in the ignorant

Im hurt..

4th Jan - 10th Jan 2009 ! PENAT!!

Byk yg terjadi minggu nie..Huh..Letih! First week kat sini mmg memenatkan badan2 and urat saraf ku..Huhu..

Firstly about class.. Da dpt jadual and everything but somehow Im worried and kinda scared of the lecturers this second sem.. Xtahu kenapa.. Maybe some of them nampak agak tegas walaupun dorang ternyata FUNHOUSE!! gile2! Huh.. Hope nothing happen aje laaa..

Secondly about bFFs ku di merata perantauan.. Hmm Ku kesian rasanya kat Ridz xdapat kerja yg die pergi apply 2h.. Die nmpak like giving up tp Ku support die utk trus mencari.. Byak ag mase! Go For It !!
Ku happy kat Suf dpt kerja kat AOWA.. Gaji basic RM1000.. Bley kate WOW! arr kan tp 2la..Ku lebih kesian kat Ridz..! Its okie! I;ll pray For uE!!

Ku jugak da call Arieff..! Huhu.. Nothings wrong la between me and dia.. Seems fine jer 2h.. Hopuli laaaaa! Amin!!

And Ku geram dgan FazRuL! Ish! Ku tahu die ade kat tepi 2 mase Ku call die.. Why the hell suruh org lain jawabkn and ckap die xdela..., pe benda laa.. Siap surh tinggal kan pesanan lagi 2h! Hello!! Im one of your best friend.. Act like a BEST friend, not a BEAST friend! Geram sgt2!

Thirdly about dilema Unisel.. Huhu.. Dah nampak dah satu timbul.. Haha.. Hmm ak agak risau.. Ak mcam tahu perkara yg terjadi disebalik drama and masalah kelasku 2 (Well sort of..) tapi Im not able to heboh2 satu kelas.. Damn! Macam mane laa nie yer.. Ku have to do something bout this.. Xper..Xper.. Lemme investigate first! Then ape2 Ku akn inform Asip.. Haha.. Kadang2 Ku da rase mcm detektif kelas Ku la plak..Haha.. Xpew2.. Nsib baek suatu hari dulu ak pernah meminati D. Conan.. Kih3!

Fourthly nak ngadu sikit arr pasal Biskut kan... Kadang2 rase xsah xngadu pasal Biskut.. Hmmm die memang HOT N COLD giler! Kejap mcm nak, Kejap haram! Argghhhh! Ku sekarang cube me-NURTURE kan diriku bahwa myb die xsuke ak mcm yg ak harapkn.. Stakat nk layan sikit2 bley.. But try not to fall and finally crash!
Tengokla mcm mane nnt k..Huh..

Hmmm ke-DESPERATE-an ku kian membuak buak.. Haha.. Now ak slowly tunjuk siape ak sebenarnye.. Hmm what if I let evryone at Unisel know about my secret?? Will it change the way they treat me?? Will it jeopardise or benefit my upcoming 8 months of living at unisel?? How it will affect my life in the future after I've confessed!? Huh.. Nevermind laaaa...

Well I'm off to have a quick rest.. Letih jalan2 kuar KL td dgan Adote, Madil and Apis.. Huhu.. Nsib bek blik naek kete Jax! Huhu..

Reminder & Don't Forget About Us

Ahh! Ak juz nak rase lega sebab 2 ak masukkan 2 lirik lagu nie.. Satu ak tulis sendiri and satu lagi from Mariah Carey(Dont Forget About Us).. Its a deication laaa kot..

REMINDER

Until today, ay, ay
Until today, ay, ay

I heard the rumours going around
Now you're dating someone else
Guess it's easy to get over me
Though when I wanna break up
Said without me you'll have no wings no more
Words are always cheap
But Im here not to bug your life
Not to mess with your preogative
Cause Im singing
Just something people call reminder

Just to remind, remind
Im the one you call late at night
Im the one you run to when you're undone
Those love notes I have in that box
The signature was signed by you
Just to remind, remind
Im the one you walk with at the beach
Im the one who can give you this kinda loving
And no one else can
Lift you high like me cause Im your only wings

Remember how I lift you high
Remember all those kisses on your lips
Remeber my touch on your skin
To me it remains until today, ay, ay
Until today, ay , ay
Until today, ay , ay..

See you're on fire with her
Guess she really knows how to treat a guy
But do your relationship coulda ever comepete
With what we used to have
Cause boy lately I've been thinking
No one coulda ever come close to who we are before
A single love with you and me in it
A trust we could hold on to
But I don't knwo why the hell you go breaking
The wonderful things we had before

Just to remind, remind
Im the one you call late at night
Im the one you run to when you're undone
Those love notes I have in that box
The signature was signed by you
Just to remind, remind
Im the one you walk with at the beach
Im the one who can give you this kinda loving
And no one else can
Lift you high like me cause Im your only wings

Remember how I lift you high
Remember all those kisses on your lips
Remeber my touch on your skin
To me it remains until today, ay, ay
Until today, ay , ay
Until today, ay , ay..

Uhh..
I dont know why I ever be talking this shit
But I just got the feeling I need to
I think I just miss you
Cant hold back still cant get over you
Cause love we use to have
What them haters call love they wanna have
So you and me we're not suppose to be here
A far from each other remembering how we use to rendezvous

Just know she'll never ever compete with me
Just know I still keep the ring you gave me
And I'll always ready to wear it again
But I guess something could never change
There's already a black hole that sucks all of it
And there's no where to go

Just to remind, remind
Im the one you call late at night
Im the one you run to when you're undone
Those love notes I have in that box
The signature was signed by you
Just to remind, remind
Im the one you walk with at the beach
Im the one who can give you this kinda loving
And no one else can
Lift you high like me cause Im your only wings

Remember how I lift you high
Remember all those kisses on your lips
Remeber my touch on your skin
To me it remains until today, ay, ay
Until today, ay , ay
Until today, ay , ay..

DONT FORGET ABOUT US

(Don't forget about us)
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
(My baby boy)

Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby
(Oh)

Now every time I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about (us)

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret

So don't forget about
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about (us)
I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she can't do like me
She'll never be MC

Baby don't you, don't you forget about (us)

(Don't forget about) Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about (us)

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

(Late Nights) playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about (us)

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us...

Ape Benda Ak Merepek Pon Xtau!

Hmm ape nak cakap oiii.. Borim gilew nie.. Hmm golek sane, golek sini pon still borim yg teramat sgt! Xdpat menangkis keboringan yang melanda hidupku ari nie.. Naquib tgah on9, Iqbal nmpak berserabut jew 2h, Madil & Adote tidor kat blik doram, Yasin dlm usaha menghabiskan novel Apis, And Jackiro plak tgah dgar lagu2 yg die curik from laptop orang lain..Haha.. & Aku..?? Xde benda nak buat.. Pergi sana, pergi sini still xjumpa cari ape yg patut dibuat.. Huh..

Hmm btw esok dah start kelas... Hmm for ari isnin xpack sgt.. Pagi 10.30 - 12.30 and sambung blik ptg 2h pkul 2.00 - 4.00.. Ari Selasa agaj pack, pkul 8.30 - 10.30 & ade lg pkul 10.30 - 12.30 and pkul 2.00 - 4.00 pon ade.. Ari rabu ade pkul 8.30 - 10.30 and ptng tuh pulak pkul 2.00 - 4.00 .. Ari Khamis same mcm ari selasa jew.. Tp the best part is that: Ari Jumaat langsung xada kelas! Wahahaha! Best! Best! Boley rehat jewla ari jumaat..., n cuti lebih skit! Huhu!

Ape2 pon ak still borim nie.. Huh! Ape nak dibuat xtau.. Moga2 Ku dpt mencari inspirasi baru sementara menunggu malam tiba.. Wahaha..

Abang Ku Rosakkn Mood Happy Ku Hari Nieh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE HIM !!

Knape die x pernah faham?? Bkan ak mintak jadi mcm nie okey.. N bukan ak sengaja jalan mcm 2h!! Memang ak dah di lahirkn mcm 2!! Cube faham.. Its nothing connected to tulang belakng or ape2 jer !! Xde kaitan!! Ak naturally was born like this! N ak bukan xpernah cuba jalan elok2.. Mcm sume lelaki, tp juz xboleh.. Die akn jadi mcm biase balik lmbat laun nyer!! Juz ak xpernah rasa sebegini marah dalam 7, 8 bulan nie! Die dah reach the final straw! N bukannya nak tegur elok2.. Bahase guna pon kasar! Nada pon sarcastic! He's my brother.. Giving advices is wajib.., tp cube faham dulu situassi die.. Klau nk marah ak bergedik ker ape ker, tak ape laaa!! Nie benda yang ak bukan mintak and bukan sengaja buat!

If only he knows ape aku rase! Ak dah cuba terangkan, tapi die biasela.. Selalu nak menang! Dia jer yg betul! Geram giler ak! I HATE HIM !! Die pon slalu gak kan panggil ak bodohla ape la.. Ade ak lawan blik slame nie?? Xade! Xade! Ak dgr jew..Yg pling truk ak buat pon ak buat muke masam.. 2 jer.. Hari nie memang ak xboleh sabar dah.. Ak juz terkilan ak tinggikan suara ak kat die depan mak aku.. Mak ak nampak agak terkejut.. Aku xmarah kat mak aku.. Tp abang ak 2 xpernah nak faham.. Ak xmintak jd mcm nie and ak bukan sengaja jln mcm 2.. Juz understand for once..And mengalah dgn reason yg ak bagi !!

Mood Ku Tr Amat Baekkkkk Ari Nie.. Hahaha..

Ku actually xde arr pe bnda sgt nk ckp ai nie.. CUme nk ckp yg Ku hppy ari nie..Hahaha..

Erm Ku dah fed up dgn sorang nie.. Die one of my friends.. Tiap2 ari asyik message jew.. Tp message pon ntah hape2..Ak pon da naik pelik.. Sruh ak kuar jalan2 arr..Luaskn pemandangan laaa.. Ape bnda laaa.. Ckap die suke bace buku arr ape arr.. Mcm nk tunjuk die br ilmu sgt..
FYI, Ku bkan suke sgt dgn org yg mcm 2.. Menunjuk nunjuk.. Klau yer pon br ilmu, simpan laaa.. Nie nmpak sgt nk brag! Ish.. Pe kejadah arr... Nak ngorat Ku tp gune care tramat klasik lg boring!! Adoyai! Ish nyampah!!

And jadual klas da kuar.. Huhu.. Happy! Happy! Ari jumaat xder kelas.. Huhu.. Ms Khor still lg mengajar writing second sem nieh.. And ms Ann pon mengajar Ku second sem nie.. Subjek grammar..Huhu..

And 3 lecturer yg ak xkenal lg: Mr Farez, Ms Kedelvi(or sumthing2) and Ms Thina.. Hopuli dorang best2 ajer!

And sekarang tgah tunggu kawan Ku si Adote utk bersiap2 utk g PP.. Nk g cucuk duit kate nyer.. N nk g lucnh trus kowt.. Lapa dowh.. Hahah..

N skunk, Ku tgah plan cuti raye cina.. Stakat nie cuti juz five days, tp nk minta 2 ari lg extra cuti arr dgn lecturer.. Tp kena knal2 and rapat2 dlu arr.. Haha.. Ku nk cuti lebih oiiit! Haha..

Ape2 pon MOOD KU happy ajer ari nie..Huhu..

2009!

Sempena 2009 nie mai la kite same2 doa it will be better! K!

Ku xde choice lain.. Ku da janji dgn kwnku si Adote that 09 will be hella better than past years! N im determined if it doesnt get better, I'll take the high road n will make sure it gets better anyhow.. HUHU!

Pe azam thun baru Ku?? Ermmmm stelah lame fkir Ku myb da dpt..

Azam2Ku For 2009:

1) Penuhi azam2 thun lalu yg x tercapai..Hehehhehehehehe..

2) Sem 1 dah dpt 3.94, so sem 2 nie nk dpt 4.00 plak for my pointer! Huhu!

3) Nak determined cari the best damn solution for my face! Huhu.. Flawless 2x!

4) Nak jd insan yg lebih berguna arr..Huhu

5) Thun nie, nak kurangkan drama2 k! Nak tukar hdupku jadi kpd sitcom, n bukan drama..

6) Love is not the first option! N past years love never be serious with me, so this year, I will treat love the same.. Xyah serious2 sgt laaa psl hubungan nieh! Huhu!

2 je la kot stakat nie.. Bile Ku da fkir lg Ku update..Hahahhahahaha..

Happy New Year Evryone!

2009 Will Get Better! Woo Hoo !!